Istanbul and I...

Completing one another, existing in each other, falling separated somehow however...

Desiring and hating, wanting and neglecting, and in the end getting separated with passion ever lasting, one me and one Istanbul...

Your taste, your pleasure will always be with me, where ever I go, even in this very moment I say good-bye to you reluctantly...

Whereever I may be, I will be with you along the distances...

And I know I'll be missing to get lost in your arms and to make-love with your wind...

I know...I just know...

The fact...

I and Istanbul, forever...

Farewells At Different Places...

Year: 1999
Location: Aarhus University, Denmark.
Description: After a warm farewell, I get out of the car. The wind messes all my hair up, I want to turn back, look and wave at him as I always used to do. But, some power prevents me, pushes me to walk forward, and I continue to walk without turning back, without being able to turn back, and see him. I perfectly know that he is waiting for the signal-the signal of reunion after this warm farewell...
And I keep on walking with feeling that all the complicated feelings, the complicated and intensive feelings I encounter inside numb all my senses...

Year:2000
Location: Aaalborg Airport, Denmark
Description: I am now leaving...I feel that I will not come back...After our farewell, I turn back...But I can't see him...I walk a little and again turn back, I know that he is there waiting for me but, still can't see...Perhaps, it was too late to see...

Year:2000
Location: Ankara Esenboga Airport, Turkey
Description: He is going away...He is going away without turning his back...I look at my reflection on the airport windows and bit goodbye to my reflection, hoping not to see again...

Year:2002
Location: Istanbul Ataturk Airport, Turkey
Description: He is leaving...He is turning back and looking at me in every step he takes...

I'm not alone, but I feel so lonely...