Friday, January 31, 2003

When all eyes are imprisoning us, how much alone we really are, my love, could you tell me?
Take off all your clothes and dance with me,
I want to be alone in our love tonight...

Sunday, January 26, 2003

His screams silence me down, whereas My silence deafens him...My unuttered words touched him and his words hurt me so deeply.
Weird communication...
A smooth and slow process of murdering...
In some years, we'll both kill some part of ourselves...
I guess this is what they call love?
THAT sickens me!

Sunday, January 19, 2003

Slavery Abolished? Mm, I don’t think so!

I kindly reject all values given to me on behalf of "my" happiness today. I reject to play this game with its pre-determined rules. I reject to be entitled as ‘killjoy’, ‘exceptional’, ‘misfit’ due to my pursuant of what I believe. I reject to be enslaved by invisible chains, instead I strongly believe the freedom of every individual. I reject to take life with closed eyes, for I have bigger eyes and smiling face than the most.
As I always tell, I’m not a rebel but just an individual determined to pursue her own truth.
Today, I celebrate myself.

Wednesday, January 15, 2003

Why am I writing all these? Why am I trying to express myself? Do I mean anything with my words? Do they really convey what I intent to say? Would it matter? I guess not.
For soon I’ll die with my words
Spoken here and
Shall be unspoken never
Ever

Friday, January 10, 2003

It’s pin drop silence, I scream. But my screams are not heard.
It’s pitch dark, I turn all the lights on. But can’t penetrate the darkness. Locked in this room, I crave for my escape.
I call my name. My head just spins around with the echoes of my name. I look up to the ceiling, my eyes get dazzled with the sharp light, and my journey begins.
My pictures of my world are shed into broken images, if nothing, and oddly enough I am not among them.
Can this be real?
Or
I’m simply hallucinating? I don’t know but I continue to let these images pass through my mind unceasingly…
Tonight, I’m dead, guys, so, see you tomorrow!